But I'm not working.
Yesterday I curled up with Bean and Inchie and watched half of Frozen. We ate eggs for breakfast. Apartment shopping. Lunch out. We got home and took a nap - all three of us. The day was capped with a birthday party for a co-worker's little girl.
Today the sun was out bright and warm. We visited the Japanese Garden. There were 3 foot long fish in the pond. They actually swim with their mouths partially out of the water.
Then the height of the afternoon - I took another nap! Following our naps we headed back out to get a little more of the rare Seattle sun along the Puget Sound. Dinner with the family. A bit of a movie before bed.
I don't know what happened in my brain that has caused work to take such a role in the front. It is very very unlike me. At least it is unlike the me I was used to at my old job. I never had a problem leaving work behind.
These days I wake up in the middle of the night solving problems. Sometimes the solutions are so present in my mind I give myself permission to open up my laptop and work. I put a a couple hours, 2am - 4am or so, then back to bed. Up at 5am. Into work.
When did my brain stop shutting off? When did it get stuck in this constant on state?
No matter. I'm working on unplugging and figuring out a way to relax again. Last weekend I was less anxious about not being online, but I didn't sleep as well. This weekend, I thought more about work, but I also managed to sleep through the night. I think this level of sleep deprivation might actually be worse than the first weeks of parenthood. Maybe simply because I only had one reason to be exhausted back then.
But this was weekend #2. And I have 3 days off next week. Let's see how I handle that!