Today is day 3 of my re-entry. I'm over caffeinated, over tired and more than a little annoyed that time won't slow down and let me recover. But more than that, I'm grateful for what came before. The re-entry hurts, but to have never left would have been worse.
Without my children.
For completely selfish and personal reasons.
For the first time since I found out I was going to be a Mom, I took an extended break. The Manic Mommies had organized their 5th annual Escape and I signed up. Three days Two nights in New Orleans, sleeping in a posh hotel, eating meals requiring no planning on my part and experiencing life at my own pace.
There were a few minutes where I didn't want to come back. I missed my girls and my husband, but I also knew how re-entry would feel. Leaving it all behind for just a few days makes the crush of everyday life feel almost debilitating. But I'll adjust and I'll do it with a memory of how I'd like to feel more often. A little less rushed and a little more present. Experiencing this moment before worrying about the next. Just a bit of added perspective to make the norm seem not so inevitable.
The things is... I can slow down. Life is fast and kids are demanding. Then life is demanding and kids grow fast. But it is up to me to put the brakes on from time to time and really relish the moments I'm living in.
My plane landed as my husband put my children to bed Sunday night. I returned home to a cuddly husband, friends in my basement and a football game on TV. For just a few more moments I enjoyed a slower pace and some quality time with people I love. The break was good.